Thursday, January 28, 2010

Freaking out just a little...

So... I've been sick. For about 2 1/2 weeks now. I'm getting better... probably because I started on antibiotics last Friday. Also got a good cough medicine that day and the DH and I actually BD'd for the first time in over a week. Haven't since because I just don't feel that good. So why am I freaking out? My period was due this week. Usually comes Tuesday night, Wednesday morning... every now and then it waits until Thursday. But it is rare, and it doesn't usually wait until this late on Thursday. Yes I am on birth control... but antibiotics can interfere with those. We all know I'm infertile because of the PCOS... but even us PCOSers ovulate now and then. What are the odds that having sex on the first day of taking antibiotics could get an infertile girl on birth control pregnant not even a week before her period is due?
I'll keep you posted!

EDITED TO ADD: It is 7pm and this is officially the latest I will have started... if I do! Yikes! At the moment I am still convinced it will come and that the antibiotics and other meds plus being sick probably screwed my system up a bit.

EDITED AGAIN: Whew! Got it this morning. Breathing a sigh of relief. I might like another baby, but I don't think we're ready right now!

Friday, January 15, 2010


Yeah, it was inevitable. I have bronchitis - now Julian is coughing just like I started out. I knew it was inevitable because he is basically attached to me from 5am - 8pm every day. No matter how much I direct my cough away from him and wash my hands, I breathe on him all day long. This really freaking sucks.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

I am only one person...

and I am not functioning at 100 percent right now. I have bronchitis; my husband just had surgery. Neither of us is functioning at 100 percent, or anywhere near it. Hopefully together we can at least come close to getting everything taken care of.

Saturday, January 09, 2010

My miracles

I promised pictures, so here they are! I meant to put them up yesterday, but it was my birthday and I kept pretty busy.



Tuesday, January 05, 2010

Single parents? Military?

Okay, I need some sympathy here from those who understand because they have been there. We are a military family. Yes, we chose this life, but mainly because we would not have one otherwise since neither of us could find work when we got married. Anyways, we move every 4 years. We have no family nearby. My husband is sent out of town pretty frequently, usually on short notice. If I'm sick, tough, there is no one to help. My husband and I have been out by ourselves maybe 5 times since my daughter was born 5 1/2 years ago. He was also deployed for my past 2 birthdays, probably more I just can't remember. He was deployed for last Thanksgiving, our sons first birthday, and Christmas. When he is gone, there is no one here to help me. I do it all, without a break. When he is here, I still do it all, because he works long hours and there is no one else. My husband is having surgery next week and will be put to sleep for it. Will I be at the hospital in case something goes wrong? No, because I can't keep the kids up there for hours, so I will be home with them, waiting for the hospital to call me to pick my husband up. My daughter will likely be either late for school or miss it completely.
Why am I ranting about this? Because I am sick to death of certain people who have no idea what it's like telling me I have it easy. When these people have a mother living very close by who watches the kids for free whenever they want to go anywhere, be it an appointment, the store, etc, takes the kids to and from school when it is inconvenient for the parents, has the kids all spend the night so Mom and Dad can get a break, it seems to me that they are the ones who have it easy. They spend every holiday with both sides of their families. They have no idea what it is like to not have Daddy around for days, much less weeks or months.
So please, anyone else who has been in my situation, please extend a little sympathy, because I am so sick of hearing how easy I have it just because I don't (can't) work outside the home. I promise to return the favor!

Saturday, January 02, 2010

I'm back!

It has been a long time since I posted. Once I gave birth to my son, I didn't feel comfortable continuing with my infertility blog. Not to mention how busy having two kids keeps you! Yet, I have often found that I really miss having somewhere I can come and write about what I am thinking and/or what is going on in my life. So, the blog has been revamped! Hopefully someone out there still has me on their bloglines. If so, give a shout out!

My daughter is now 5 years old and goes to kindergarten in the afternoons. We really wanted to get her in all day (as did she), but we moved here too late and were actually lucky we were able to get her in at all at the nearby school. She loves school and is doing great. Unfortunately, her being so smart seems to come along with a terrible attitude problem. So don't be surprised if you see frequent posts about her mouth driving me to my wits end! She is beautiful and smart and lots of fun, but boy is she a difficult one.

My son just turned 2. He seems to be a bit behind on his verbal skills, but he definitely makes up for it with his personality! He's handsome and silly and a definite Mama's boy. I wouldn't change it for the anything! Lately he has been refusing to take his nap - I'm not ready for this! Hopefully his sister going back to school Monday will help get him back on schedule.

I love our new home in Colorado, but I miss my friends in Texas. I find myself feeling lonely a lot and have to fight off the depression that goes along with that.

So, that's a little bit of an intro. I'll be back soon!