Sunday, October 15, 2006

A bad place.... warning: too much (gross) info

I am in a bad place. I have barely slept in 2 nights. Friday night around 10pm I started bleeding very heavily. Between the hours of 10pm and 7am I went through 12 super-plus absorbency tampons and several super absorbency pads. Needless to say, sleep was not possible, unless I wanted to flood the bed. Had a break from around 7am til noon, slept about 3 hours. Flow gradually started increasing again until around 8pm Saturday night, in the middle of my daughters bathtime, the floodgates opened again. I say floodgates, because the blood is literally gushing out of me, despite the so-called super-absorbency. See now why I forewarned about too much info?
So, after putting my daughter to bed, my good friend Christy (I thank the sweet Lord for her!) came over so I could run to the store for supplies. She convinced me to go to the ER because I have been losing so much blood. Since I was pretty freaked out too, I went. After 9.5 (I kid you not, ~10pm-7:30am) hours in the ER, I was sent home with the instructions to go see my fertility dr Tuesday morning. The ER dr 'looked' around inside and did not see anything. Um, hello, how can you see anything when there is blood pouring out the whole time?! Didn't even bother with an ultrasound. Did not 'feel around' inside either, like at a regular pelvic exam. Told me it must just be a hormonal imbalance, thanks to the PCOS, the Clomid Challenge, and the Provera I took back in August. Gave me a test for anemia, said it was fine, and sent me home saying the fertility clinic told him not to do anything. So, back home I am, still gushing blood, exhausted, and worried. Also really pissed off! How can they expect anyone to spend 4 f-ing days going to the bathroom every hour+/- to clean up a big mess?! I can't decide if it would make any difference to go to a different ER tonight. Or to call Monday morning and insist (or try to) the fertility clinic see me sooner. Or if I even have the energy.
Maybe after a third night with basically no sleep I'll be so sleep-deprived that I can go into the ER with hallucinations and little voices in my head. Think they'd do something then?
Yeah, I am definitely in a bad place.

1 comment:

MamaChristy said...

I'm hoping that you were able to get some sleep last night and you are waking u pin a better place than you were last night. Thinking of you, babe.